the great pretender
10/27/09
7:02 AM
it's been 6 years since the first time we met...
it's been 5 years since you broke my heart...
it's been 4 years since you left...
it's been 3 years since the last time i gave a gift to you...
it's been 2 years since the last time i greeted you...
it's been 1 year since the last time we last seen each other...
this year...i won't be able to see you...
sigh...
you were online...but i did not greet you...
i didn't forget... i'm just pretending that i did...
sigh...
the most selfish person i know
10/19/09
3:09 AM
my letter was chosen in arirang...im so happy...and alexander of ukiss, who picked my letter, won in the battle of the letters...he even said he likes ME... omg omg...i like you too...
the most selfish person i know is probably me. i'm the type of person who's very possessive when it comes to my bestfriend. i want my bestfriend to be with me everytime i want. since my bestfriend is a guy, he asked me to help him with the girl he likes (he wants some girl advice). i help him make a letter for the girl and he was so happy when i finally finished it. he gave it to the girl immediately. "Cate, i made a poem for you." the girl blushed as she heard that my bestfriend "made" a poem for her. so, she read it and i saw her clenching her jaw. then, she suddenly said, "are you sure you wrote this?" "Yes. I wrote it just for you.." then, the girl just slapped him. after that day, they never talked again. my bestfriend asked me why Cate slapped him, and i said i didn't know. But, the truth is, that poem is just the lyrics of a song(which my bestfriend doesn't know) and the girl found out that my bestfriend was lying when he told her that he wrote that for her. yes, i know. im selfish. but im happy that i still have my bestfriend with me now.
sometimes, it's better this way
10/16/09
9:41 AM
i was shocked when i felt a hand on my shoulder.when i turned around...it was you...you didn't even say hi to me...but, then, i remembered... i won't say hi to you too...i was reviewing my notes while walking...
then, i saw you doing the same...
your face lit up when you saw me...
but then, i walked past you...
and pretended that nothing happened...
i looked at the posts on the bulletin board...
then, i suddenly felt two hands on the either side of my shoulders...
i didn't bother to turn around...
i know it's you...
you stood beside me...
no words came out from our mouth...
then, i left you alone...
pretending i didn't see you...
i know...our relationship is weird...
but you know what?
i'm happier if we stay this way...i like silence...
i know you like it too...just stop the skipship...coz i get goosebumps...
maybe my heart is meant to be broken
10/7/09
5:55 PM
first of all, i'll like to clarify, i am not broken hearted now...
sigh...
i had a dream last night...
and...i met this amazing guy that my family knows(but, i don't know him)...
we became close and you know...we became more than friends...
but, NO COMMITMENTS...
(i'm afraid of commitments...T_T)
then, one day...i just found out that he's leaving...
and he's not coming back...
of course, i got broken hearted...
sigh...
even in my dream...
i get hurt...
i thought...dreams are suppose to be HAPPY...
why is mine sooooo depressing...
well..maybe...
just maybe...
my heart is meant to be broken...