a dream is a wish your heart makes
3/17/09
2:51 AM
i know..im too old to watch (and love) those disney movies...
but there's something Cinderella sang that made shiver...
"a dream is a wish your heart makes...when you're fast asleep..."
does that mean we actually wish something we dream about???
oh...no...that's freaking me out...
you see...for about 4 times a week...i dream of this GUY...
he's my friend...and he used to be my BESTFRIEND...
and by the end of our dream...WE WERE HOLDING EACH OTHERS' HANDS...darn...
okay...history...history...
when we were still in grade school...i found out that HE LIKES ME...
so...i confronted him...and made him choose...i avoid him or we'll stay as bestfriends...
he choose the latter(good choice...)
we got separated for 4 years since he studied in a different school...
during those times...we have this little tradition every holidays..
we should send each other greeting cards...
that's why we stayed as friends...
so...now we're in college...
we're studying in the same university...
and...there was this time wherein he didnt have a class and i was waiting for our next class to start...
he and i talked...
and he asked me how my love life is...
of course...since i was loveless and crushless(abstinence is a MUST)....i told him that im still single...
then...he asked me this: "GUSTO MO...KITA NA LANG???" (if you translate this...it's like 'if you want...we can be a girlfriend-boyfriend.')
damn...
okay...i said WHATEVER...
it's just a joke right???
anyway...last holiday season...his sister gave me something...then...she told me it was from him...
sh*t...i totally forgot about the tradition...
okay...i looked around the mall trying to find a CHRISTMAS CARD!!!
but...since it was already past Christmas by that time...all stocks were taken out...
lucky me...
sooo..i just sent him a thank you/sorry card...
anyway...back to the dream thing...
do you think...i actually like him???well..of course i like him..he's my bestfriend...
what i mean is...do i like him...in a nonplatonic way???
if i do...then...im big big big trouble...
rule number ONE...THOU SHALL NOT FALL FOR YOUR BESTFRIEND....
but...i really think that im just thinking too much...
there's nothing to think about...
everything is normal...
urghh...
bloody dream...
love fool...
3/10/09
2:29 AM
i read this somewhere in the internet...
...I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your close friend..,my dad told me that there are two types of girl: the one you grows out of, and the one you grow into. i really hope I'm the latter. I may not be the one you love today, but i'll let you go for now, hoping that one day you'll fly back to me because i think you worth the wait....
i know...i may sound crazy...im a fool...a love fool...but...i really cant stop the way im feeling...
you may not love me now...but i hope...one day...you'll learn to love me back...
for now...i can be just a friend whom you can trust...