stop making a fool out of yourself
1/20/09
2:30 AM
i thought im over him...
again..i have proven myself wrong...
i've been convincing myself for 3 years already...
but then...i just can't control how i feel...
yesterday, i received the most disturbing news ever...
Jerry is in love with CC!!
he writes her often...and he text her daily...
he even said that "my day wont be complete if i cant text you!!"
i told myself im not jealous...
well...it hurts...
but im not jealous...
what saddens me is that CC is just treating Jerry like a trophy...
we can't deny the fact that CC is in love with her bestfriend...well...EX bestfriend...
she spreads her letters and SMS to everyone...
and it really annoys me...
why cant she just tell Jerry that she doesnt love him????
why toy with his feelings???
and you know what???
im not saying it because i want Jerry for myself...
im saying this because he's my friend....or that's what i think...
yes...i still love him...but not as much as before...
he's, after all, my first love...and i dont think i can ever forget him...
anyway...Queenie was the one who told me the news..
and...she told it during our laboratory class...
that's bad...
i cried for a few minutes...
i stopped crying because i dont want to be talked about...
but...deep inside, it still hurts..
well...until last night...
and now...im fine...
im not that hurt anymore...
i can breathe perfectly fine now...
and i just wish...that the rest of the week would be uneventful...
PS... to jerry: i stopped making a fool out of myself when i decided to stop loving you...now....it's time for you to do the same...she doesn't deserve you...you're a great guy...i hope you can see that...